Swinging here and there

Emo blog here....Please do not take what I post here......

Today, I felt so bad ......
on what people said......
I wanna say something that I shouldn't say....

It is stuck here.....

Who should I trust on?

I am kinda lost today...

I feel moody.....

Am I too sensitive......or too emotional?

I tried to cover myself not to respond negatively....

It may (or not) fool people but it can't fool myself....

If I had no feeling.....

There wont be much pain.....

I wish I am heartless.....
If I can built stronger walls around me....

or if I invent a filter system in my ear.....

I would feel better....

Why this problem occur again?

Why I can't stand by myself even though how often I said to myself to be strong.....

Why am I so care of how people commented on me....

Why do I act like a coward....

I hate this feeling....

this make me weak....

and lower my enthusiasm in working....

I don't wanna trap in this problem again that prohibit my progress...

Hey...

stupid problem and emo thingy....

GO AWAY...

stay out of my life.....

Don't disturb me again...

or I will tear you in pieces....

burn you....

I swear.... I will beat you.....

Wait to loose!