Inferiority

Yesterday, I fail myself again because I became a negative person again. I have always complained of my height since dinosaur time.

One of my dreadful weaknesses ( yes this kill my confidence) is always low in confidence about myself.

At college (my class) , I am the shortest one, people call me shorty. No matter how frequently I tell my myself height is not an issue, you have the brain, you are smart, you have lots of hidden strength that you don't know, it seems this is just a temporary cure.

When I see my college friends, they are tall and when I see myself I am short.

This feeling occurred again. It really bothers me a lot.

I complaint to my mom. She told me I am stupid if I think that issue again. She said:-

• " What if you are dying, what actually will be your most important thing in life" "Height?"


• "You have many wonderful things in life why let height block your fighting spirit?"


• " You are blessed with a perfect body, you are not handicap or dwarf yet you still have that thought?"

Yes, I got that message. However, I am still stuck in this kind of thought. You might think this is silly, 19 years old still as childish but it is there in me.

I want permanent drugs to kill this thought.

I know that answer is within myself, if I let it, it will be.

Honestly, I blog it here just to release this bad thought. Of course, I will try my best to get rid of this negative "bugs" that have stuck in me for long time.

Just to remind myself, I maybe small and short,but I have chili padi characteristics. Don't ever underestimate me!