Fighting for Exams

I will have exams starting tomorrow till next Friday.

After this, it marks the end of my Semester 1.

MOTIVATIONS to work smart and to equip myself to deal with the "battle" or "war''.

• Sleep early today and days before exams.
• Be calm and steady as it always wins the race. Be careful and look for what the questions want.
• Time management. Allocate appropriate time for each questions.
• Focus in answering the questions. Do not panic. Everything is in your brain. You just need to stay calm to get it.
  
• Speed up my writing.

I just have to "tahan" or stay on for around 10days to finish the suffering ( haha... I have exaggerate it).

Then, it will be a long-break for me to re-charge and have fun to the maximum as well.

Keep fighting.

Believe you can.

" I can because I think I can."

Knowing the Unsolved

Here, just to share with you a passage I have read.

Also, it's another reminder to myself .

In a subtopic of exposing selfishness in a book I am reading, How to Live Without Fear and Worry, I have come across with a paragraph that pause me for a while as I read this several times in order to ponder about this statement.

The words of wisdom are:-

Nothing outside us can possibly affect us as much as what is taking place in our minds. It is an established fact that, " As man thinketh in his heart, so he is."

-K. Sri Dhammananda
( Author of the book)

I am still reading this book as I want to mitigate the fear and worry in me for a lot of things.
I wish I can get solution to deal with these.

Stay tune to my post.

Smiling at your Anger

These days, I found that I am easily stirred up by my delusion and negative emotions that took my rational away.

Luckily, I have come across a handbook namely, Present Moment Wonderful Moment by Venerable Thay. This book has taught me how to be mindful in dealing with daily tasks.

I would like to extract one passage from this book as to remind myself to control my own anger and be calm and steady in order to work on every things I am accountable for.

The wisdom of words are:-

45. Smiling At Your Anger

Breathing in, I know that anger makes me ugly.
Breathing out, I do not want to be contorted by anger.

Breathing in, I know I must take care of myself.
Breathing out, I know loving kindness is the only answer.

To explain this, the author has given a scenario as an example.

When you are angry, it is like a house burning. When we know that our house is burning, we must first put out the fire instead. Searching the person who starts on the fire and then throw the blame on him/her would not do any help.

Therefore, when we are angry, we should first control this emotion and be calm by mindfully breath-in and breath-out meditation.

You can also count: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 to hold on.

Or recite your God's name.

Forget about why you are angry. When you feel better that time, then, you should find the solution. Angry would not harm others but only you yourself.

Also, be compassion. Forgive the person who irritates you. You should find the cause(s) why the person do so. Maybe he/she does not mean to hurt you due to ineffable difficulties. Or maybe you are just being sensitive.

So ladies and gentlemen,

Control your anger before it controls you.

向运动选手致敬

这几天，常在家里观看2010亚洲比赛。

我深深体会到所谓的“台上三分钟，台下十年功”。

看到运动员非凡的表现， 尤其是体操，真令人赞叹不已。

看到他们那胜利表情， 我可体会得到， 他们感到欣慰，因为历年来的付出总算没白费， 辛苦为了光宗耀祖是值得的。

但，那些输了比赛的选手， 失落的表情很明显的浮现在脸上。

他们背负着国家与国人的期望，却令他们失望了。

对我来说，只要有体育精神的运动健将，有努力的，已是很棒的了。

因为他们都尽力了，他们能做到别人不可能的事，他们为了比赛付出了宝贵的时间与精力。

我很感激他们给我的讯息：

• 失败乃是成功之母，不要放弃，只要有尽力而为，你已经赢了。
• 凡是比赛或任何事，都要有定和平静， 事情必定事半功倍。

在这我要特别为我国马来西亚运动员打气，希望他们再接再厉，不负大众所望。加油！

Compliments to My Dad

My dad is both a bread-winner of the family and house-maker (House-maker > sometimes "lar" haha).

Every weekdays morning, he has to wake up at 5pm to prepare breakfast and then wake me and my sister up.

At 6.30 am, he starts driving :-

1st destination >>
To drop my sis at SMK Dato'Lokman ( it's also my former secondary school)

2nd destination >>
To drop me at UCTI at Bukit Jalil ( currently where I am studying)

3rd destination >>
His workplace- Affin Bank at Jalan Chulan.

Then, he starts his job.

At 5.45 am he finishes his work.
[Sometimes later than that due to OT without pay.]
He will then come home. Usually he will wait for me at Setiawangsa LRT station to fetch me after my studies as I travel by LRT .

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Weekends...
especially on Sunday

He will cook dinner for us.

But we have to do the washing...TT ( I am too pampered )

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I am very thankful to have my dad as my father. Although sometimes, his "Virgo sign Horoscope" - perfectionist behavior annoys me as he wants thing to do according his standard. For instance when you hang the clothes, different hanger is for different clothes; you have wrap the curtain his way.. etc... ( hmm... I am not criticizing him, these are facts.)

Nevertheless, I am proud to be your daughter. I wish I can repay your kindness as you have sacrificed a lot for the family.

I would not let you down dad. You will be proud of me someday.

Test

I felt disappointed on the Quantitative Skill (QSS) test yesterday.

I made silly mistake (I hope it is only one silly mistake) as I have loss 11 marks.

Heart-broken.

Until today, I still feel the "pain" of this.

But this is bygones, I cannot rope the teacher's test paper as this is a serious academic offense and this would be mission impossible.

So, all I need to do is to pray and prepare for the examination on December.

Lesson learnt-

• Be careful and focus in doing questions.
• Do sufficient revision to accelerate my speed of doing questions so that I would have more time to check the answers.
• Always revise after the lecture and it must within 24 hours, no excuse anymore!

I hope I can score flying colors in this coming exam. God Bless ME.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival @ Mooncake Festival!

Today is one of the celebrations for Chinese culture i.e Mid-autumn festival. In some families, it would be a gathering time for all members of the family; some will have prayer to the moon to pray for the goddess to fulfill certain wishes, etc.

Thanks to moon cakes advertisement from different bakeries, it reminds people about this celebration, if not it would be forgotten by many people especially the Generation y though the main purpose is to advertise the particular organization's product in order to bring profit to the company.

I am very thankful that I came from a quite traditional family. My family still hold on the tradition to celebrate this big day. Grandma and aunt have spent a few days to prepare a big feast for us (around 40 people) today.

Special compliment to them- grandma and aunt, for continuing the tradition. Besides, with this opportunity we can meet with other relatives which seldom in contact. This actually binds our relationships more closely.

I love Mid-autumn festival. It reminds me about my childhood time. Me, my sisters and fellow cousins were the happiest persons when this day came. After, we, the kids had our delicious dinner, we then played lantern until it is burnt ; played candles and made it an astonish view to behold with many lighted candles; we played games (e.g cat and mouse),etc. Those were memorable experience I can recalled during my childhood period. This year, we had mouth-watering dishes however we did not played games as we had before.

Maybe our batch has grown up, we 'tend to become matured and don't play children games anymore",whereas another batch of cousins are just babies. I need to wait for them to grow up, then I will join their "gang" to play games though I am older than them around 20 years.

I wonder,would the younger generation (which I am one of them) continue this family tradition ?
Anyhow, I wish my family members would be good to each other and continue this tradition.
Happy Mid-Autumn Festival. :)
And don't forget to watch your weight as you would have eaten much moon cakes that are fattening. Haha!

Happy Malaysia Day!

This is the 47th anniversary for formation of Malaysia since 1963 where prior to this was Federation of Malaya. And, after many years of this historical event, this is the first year where all states in Malaysia have an official public holiday on 16 September.

I am neither born before Independence nor Formation of Malaysia,of course, I do not denial I have weak patriotism towards my home country as I do not really into the real meaning of these special occasions (except it is holiday!). Since there are many ugly sides in terms of it politic, economic and social condition as exposed by the media (or even hidden stories) , these has actually taken much sense of belonging here.

However, I have heard a quote somewhere which is quite meaningful;
" Don't hope what the country can do for you; but, what you can do for the country?"

Right, we may be not satisfied with many things here, nevertheless, we were all grown up here, we do get some sort of benefits here like education; free medication for those senior citizens at government hospital; etc. Looking on the bright side, there is no war here; we can still do well if we work hard, this country is not as bad as other countries.

We need to accept the fact that there is no perfect country on planet earth actually. Anywhere has the same scenario but different in its level of seriousness.

I sincerely wish that "one Malaysia" concept will stay and really can be achieved. But not a temporarily slogan to promote unity and then forgotten by people.

All the best to my home country. Happy Malaysia Day!

Equanimity

I want to become non-judgemental and non-discrimination in doing many things.

However, in worldly aspect, this exclude for example doing research papers or
schoolwork which require evaluation, analysis, compare and contrast etc.

[ Rather saying the above statement as I discovered it is quite contradicting in finding inner peace and collaborate with the things I am account for. I found a better words to substitute it with the new word I have learnt from a very inspiring talk which is the word- Mindfulness]

I wish I can and I believe I am in the process of receiving it:-

See everyone as equal,

See things at every angle without any biasness ,
without personal interest, without any emotional influences,

Be at present by being focus,

Be happy.

好多奇怪感觉

今天，莫名其妙， 觉得自己是一个感情丰富的人，可能是因为接触不同人，事物吧。

矛盾

心愿达成了，却又不舍离开从前。
一幕幕经历过的影片从新在脑海里呈现。
那是过去。

现在开始面对现实。
必须担当该有的责任。


看见他
心里有不会解释的兴奋。
可是害怕
怕自己会胡思乱想
明知不会有结果
想他也是白想
可是还是控制不了
也许
时间会淡化一切。


挑战自己
我说你行你就行哦！

New chapter begins

It has been long time I have not blog here. Sorry to my loyal blog fans! (as if I have one, my imagination is as always good. ^^)

I am happy as I managed to get express my degree studies though still waiting for release of foundation result. This can save time and avoid my brain become rusty without waiting for the next intake which will be in October (yey!) .

Time past really fast without noticing. I turned 19 this year; I have completed my foundation program; next week going for degree ( feel excited to meet new friends) ; the list goes on...

There were sweet and sour; thick and thin ; sweat and tears in the foundation program that I have undergo in UCTI. No doubt, it was quite memorable.

I wish everyone from my intake all the best and be successful in their field of profession in the near future.

When you are getting used to the people and environemnt, without noticing it comes to an end. Frankly, I feel bit sad, as I need to say farewell with some friends. But, just as this quote says:-

Don't cry it is over, smile because it happened. (Dr. Seuss)

Ya, right, life still move on, a better tomorrow is waiting ahead!

Something to say

Everyone wish to be comfort when they are down, dismotivated or helpless...

I try my best to open my ears to release people's pain,

I wonder if anyone can be there when I really need one,

I hope someone can be there for me,

but the truth is.....

still in the process of getting one true blue friend.

Nah, I am strong to handle things my own.

How to Win Friends & Influence People

Before I write about this book that I have read, let me give the reference of it. These are because, firstly, not to be accused of plagiarism as some of the contents are taken out from this book; secondly, in case you are interested, you can find this book by using the reference.

Carniege. D, 1981, How to win Friends & Influence People, Revised Edition, USA: Pocket Books

Why review this book? Actually, it's a reminder for me what I have read, and to apply it in daily basis. Also, I would like to share the content with you, this book make sense to me. The motives I read this book were because of recommendation from my mom; and I wish to have better soft skill to communicate with people especially get people willingly to work for you. In my case, not in work field but, in my group assignment. Now, I need to practise by applying it, hopefully I can fully make use of it when is the time for me to my work field.

There are a few section in this book, I will adopt the list from the book, those startling lines are:-

Part 1: Fundamental techniques in handling people
Principles:
Don't criticize, condemn or complain.
Give honest and sincere appreciation.
Arouse the other person an eager want.

Part 2: Six ways to make people like you.
Principles:
Become genuinely interested in other people.
Smile.
Remember that a person's name is to that person the sweetest and most important sound in any language.
Be a good listener. Encourage other to talk about themselves.
Talk in terms the other person's interests.
Make the other person feel important- and do it sincerely.

Part 3: Win people to your way of thinking
Principles:
The only way to get the best of an argument is to avoid it.
Show respect for the other person's opinion. Never say, "You're wrong".
If you are wrong, admit It quickly and emphatically.
Begin in a friendly way.
Get the other person saying "yes, yes" immediately.
Let the other person do a great deal of the talking.
Try honestly to see things from the other person's point of view.
Be sympathetic with the other person's ideas and desires.
Appeal to nobler motives.
Dramatize your ideas.
Throw down a challenge.

Part 4: Be a leader
Principles:
Begin with praise and honest appreciation.Call attention to people's mistakes indirectly.
Talk about your own mistake before criticizing the other person.
Ask questions instead of giving direct orders,
Let the other person save face,
Praise the slightest improvement and praise every improvement. Be 'hearty in your approbation and lavish in your praise."
Give the other person a fine reputation to live up to.
Use encouragement. Make the fault seem easy to correct.
Make the other person happy about doing the thing you suggest.

Dale Carniege and his associates had explained the principles above well with examples based on the experience they had gone through, some historical event, and even political evidence that proved the techniques used were very much successful.

The principle listed above may be vague, but you will understand it once you read the book as it contains life examples.

Thanks for reading this blog. Hopefully, I can master the above skills in achieving my dreams.
I wish you benefit from this blog too.

Inferiority

Yesterday, I fail myself again because I became a negative person again. I have always complained of my height since dinosaur time.

One of my dreadful weaknesses ( yes this kill my confidence) is always low in confidence about myself.

At college (my class) , I am the shortest one, people call me shorty. No matter how frequently I tell my myself height is not an issue, you have the brain, you are smart, you have lots of hidden strength that you don't know, it seems this is just a temporary cure.

When I see my college friends, they are tall and when I see myself I am short.

This feeling occurred again. It really bothers me a lot.

I complaint to my mom. She told me I am stupid if I think that issue again. She said:-

• " What if you are dying, what actually will be your most important thing in life" "Height?"


• "You have many wonderful things in life why let height block your fighting spirit?"


• " You are blessed with a perfect body, you are not handicap or dwarf yet you still have that thought?"

Yes, I got that message. However, I am still stuck in this kind of thought. You might think this is silly, 19 years old still as childish but it is there in me.

I want permanent drugs to kill this thought.

I know that answer is within myself, if I let it, it will be.

Honestly, I blog it here just to release this bad thought. Of course, I will try my best to get rid of this negative "bugs" that have stuck in me for long time.

Just to remind myself, I maybe small and short,but I have chili padi characteristics. Don't ever underestimate me!

Prince of Persia-Sand of time

I have not blogged for a week already. I will now blog to satisfy those who thirst to read it.... (haha.... perasan pulak!)

No, actually I want to cultivate this habit, so that I will gain more flow in writing and maybe my commad of English will be improved. The feeling of knowing what points to write but does not know how to put in sentence was really sucks. ( I have tried in exams before.) So, now, it is just for me to practise writing so that I won't suffer in the exam.

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My family and I watched this Prince of Persia yesterday at Pavillion. Overall it was okay for me (Robbin Hood was better in my opinion ).The moral of the story was the bond between brotherhod.

No ''a-ha" moment actually.

At least yesterday, I had spent quality time with my family .

The best part of yesterday's activity was to try different food there. We went from restaurant to restaurant. Life is really good with all those delicious food entering your mouth....hehe....

Robin Hood

This afternoon, I went to watch a movie i.e. Robin Hood with my mom. The length of the movie was quite long as it took around 2 and 1/2 hours.

I would highly recommend you to watch this movie. You cannot miss this because you will surely entertained by the story. Before I watch the movie, I guess it would just Robin and the gang helping the poor in the hood and the story surround this setting. But the truth was, it talked about war between 2 nation which were England and France. It mainly featured the battlefield scene.

Hehe.. not only that , for more information, you need to watch it yourself. The movie would not be what you have expected.

I tell you, you won't waste a single cent watching this movie. It was really good!

The Robin Hood production need to pay me for this... wakaka.... for promoting the movie....

I felt pitiful towards people in the olden days.

Firstly,the suffering and how vulnerable the people (especially villages) were.

Ugly side of people- Exploitation of the strong over the weak person, it happen every where, from yesterdays until modern days.

I was amazed how the people from the past had such strong physical condition to fight for war.

I really like the character of Robin Hood. He was an unlucky man to be outlaw.With the unlucky happening struck on his life( you find out the reason why in the movie), he was yet the true man with bravery and kindness. I wonder, would there be such good and ideal man on earth that I can really meet? The story had given me inspiration that I can't describe. In this movie it gave me lots of 'a-ha moment".

In conclusion, this is a worth to watch movie.

Drama for Malaysian Studies

This morning, my group has to present Historical Role Play before independence of Malaysia. My group and I took role in Portuguese colonisation era.

For this presentation or known as role play, we had preparation around a month. The preparation were:

• Casting- Choosing the main character and sub one
• Wardrobe
• Background music
• Story line and script
• etc.

However, the outcome was not really good.

• Firstly, there was last minute setting on background (slide to be projected on the screen)


• Lack of cooperation among the actor and actress ( this was mainly due to some didn't memorize the dialog well and some were absent during rehearsal)


• The outfit was not attractive enough


• Background music was too soft (we forgot to prepare speaker) and the music was released in the wrong time

My role was just casting a Portuguese soldier. Haha, today, I missed some lines and the scenario was a bit "kelam-kabut" when the acting go not what we rehearsal. I had even laugh and act stupidly in front of the audience. Also, there were some moments where I turn blank and stood there doing nothing.... Haha....

The drama was a bit messy in fact, it can label as a disaster. Back at the stage, we didn't know when actually is our turn to act. Poor Ck, chasing everyone to go on stage.

Here, I'm not blaming my teammates effort. But is just what I learned from the mistake we made.(Note: My contribution was seemingly less, so, I was a bit guilty too with how much work I have given to the entire presentation.)

My insight:

Being a leader which was taken by Kong in coordinating the whole drama preparation is a tough job as I have observed in this whole activity. (Imagine, how leader of the world can rule a country like Obama and Hu Jin Tao that rule his country... I really salute them who can take such heavy responsibility well such as able to make people willingly to work efficiently...) This time, the participants involve in acting were way a lot then other group I have work before. Issue like arranging time to meet together; sending message to those were absent to make sure they know what happened; getting people to work (but usually was not what you expected) etc.

Working with people especially a lot of them in an activity was not easy as I think.

Guess what?

I will need to work on more leadership skill and communication skill.

Today, was a good encounter that opened my eyes to gain more self-improvement.

Released of results

Semester 2 examination....

Date: 29/3/2010-2/4/2010

Venue: Bandar Bukit Jalil Examination Hall

Time: 2pm -4pm

Test or examination is to justify what we understood. But does this really measure the student's ability or understanding toward the subjects comprehensively?

Some exam results were released this week. There were some who received good results but some were disappointed with it.

There were common feelings.....+,-,X,/,@,#,$,%.......among the students.

• ^^ Happy for the outcome as it shown that all the efforts given were worth after all.


• -_- Disappointed with the result and do not know where went wrong in the exam.


• !_! Regretted and despair with the outcome due to lack of preparation.


• %_% Shock with the result (either too good---"my god, I didn't prepare and I get such good result?"-----or bad "The exam was easy, how come I get such bad results?"


• ?? Etc...

As a student, all the above feeling I felt before.

To my friends...

For those who obtain good results, congratulation! Continue your effort and sustain your standard.

For those who received results that were not desired, don't be too sad. I will say, never stop trying. It is normal to be sad, but you need to get over it. Let's work this together (in adjusting your sad mood).

Believe in yourself, you will fly and reach the sky that you aimed.

Background music:"...... I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky, think about it every night and day...."

The Power of Self Image Psychology

This is a motivational book that my mom recommended me to read. I found this book interesting and got lots of "a-ha" moment. It helped me to uncover my hidden potential and gave me strength to continue my journey by reaching my goals.

The author was a plastic surgeon. He had improved many people's feature from the bad or the ugly to beautiful or attractive one. However, some of his clients, despite the features had improved compare before surgery, they never felt the change as beautiful or charming but even worse. This was because, they still pertain the self image as ugly or a failure.

The book was not talking about how to improve physical appearance, but, the appearance you perceive on yourself in your thought or known as "self-image".

There are twelve principle to obtain "magic power" in your self image. The key words were obtained from the last chapter of the book. How to practise this? This is by setting a positive self image and not forgetting keeping it in your mind, the wonderful words of wisdom are:-

1. 
   
   Know the Truth of yourself. Many people tend to overlook their potential and constantly tell themselves they can't do it. Why destroy or pull down yourself by telling yourself you cannot do something but the truth is you can?
2. 
   Use your Imagination, see yourself as successful you want. Keep that image in your mind, tell yourself you are reaching to it as you are working on it.
3. 
   
   
   Relaxation is crucial to recharge yourself for future work. It is no use to constantly tense up but to enjoy the whole process as fulfilling. It is simple, when you are tired, put aside worries, you will settle it once you get the energy after relaxation. (Lynhuei, you need to learn from this...be calm and stop worrying)
4. 
   
   Get That Winning feeling after you have accomplish something that very meaningful to you. Be positive, think you can win, no one is born to be a failure after all.
5. 
   
   Cultivate Good Habits. Who say you can't change your bad habits that hinder your progress? You are in charge of the game here, you can change the rule as long as you want a change!
6. 
   
   The Aim of Happiness. Life is full of ups and downs, try to be joyful as every day is a new day to go. Everyday you have is actually a blessing as we have time to pursue what we want. Try to live to the fullest!
7. 
   
   Unmasking. Be yourself, do not be what people want you to be or intimidate someone else. Everyone is born uniquely. Genuine is the beauty of all.
8. 
   
   Compassion is most wonderful thing in the world. With this, for example empathise other people who need help and try reaching them is the best quality of mankind. Be compassion and kind, you will feel good.
   
9. 
   
   Accepting your weakness. Do not blame yourself and constantly stay in that blame game on yourself. Do what you can to alter learn from. Condemning yourself for your fault that everyone in the world make can only make you feel vulnerable. Stand up!
   
10. 
    
    Living with your mistakes. Yes, forgive yourself and take it as valuable lesson. The worst mistake is not making mistakes but do not get over from your mistakes and just stuck there. Mistakes over the years are experiences that useful for you.
    
11. 
    
    Being yourself. Be truthful to yourself. Love yourself, you belong to yourself, no one can take your self-esteem away, unless you don't want to own it. Honesty is the best policy.( Don't be mistaken,this is not for business, but self-development.)
    
12. 
    
    Never Retiring. Even you are going to retire, go for something you like, you are not useless even though you retire from you work. You can still live as young as you like. ( Note: this is only applicable when you reach your retiring age. Just keep it, use it when the time comes. ^^)

I wish you can acquire a good self image that leads you to the life you desire and success.

Thanks for reading.

Dissapointment to the matches

Today, Malaysia team lost to China for all the matches in semi-finals.

Were the players' mental strength deteriorate? Insufficient energy? Inadequate skills? Pressure? Or luck was just not there?

I am unhappy, hope has vanished.... My idol lost!

I was really disappointed, but let the bygones be bygones.

Hope Malaysia can get both Thomas and Uber Cup 2 years later.

Be positive I guess is the best cure.

Group Work

Today, my team had presentation on CIT subject on Astro company.

Ok, the outcome was so-so because:

• The presentation slides were not attractive ( Mr. Burn suggest to me to put more diagram or picture)
• The length of the presentation was short a compared to other teams.
  
• Sir asked lots of question ( This showed that he didn't understand about what we presented)

Also, I found out that my group members were not participative enough. There is something wrong I can sense but I can't tell. But every time I have meeting, the members will give all kind of excuses to me. Then, they will be late for sending what I asked. Hey... these were minor problem.

Being a leader, sometimes I really feel demotivated when I talk to them, they don't give feedback. Or, some even "order" me for doing something (that they suppose to do).

Ok, enough for the complaints. I need to stop blaming.

As I have read Dale Carnegie's work, How to Win Friends &Influence People 1st chapter 'If you want to gather the HONEY, don't kick over the BEEHIVE".

In summary of this chapter, Don't criticise, condemn, or complain.You need to consider for example put in people's shoe. If you were him( the person the annoyed you), will you be doing the same thing?

Haha--- I have broked the fundamental rules.

Ok, this will be my starting point to work on my mistakes.

GO Malaysian team

I really hope our Malaysian team can get Thomas Cup and Uber Cup and prove to the world we memang boleh bukan cakap boleh atau memang tak boleh.

Felt so bad, I didn't watch Lee Chong Wei's match yesterday! Sorry Mei Xian, I have wasted your money for texting me. LOL. This was because I had cold fight with my sis and she had "conquer "the Tv yesterday. Bad sis......



Anyway....

Malaysia team... Please make me proud! I can't do anything for them but just wanna show my patriotism(haha) and give them support here.

All the best to Malaysia badminton team...

Dissapointment

Around 40 minutes ago, I was waken my phone. It was my friend mengyao calling.She told me I got B+ for the assignment as she had obtained the feedback form.

What a heart-breaking moment! After the tick and thin, sweat and tears I had gone through in the assignment, I got credit only? This result dissatisfy me! I have worked really hard and suffer insomnia for several day and actually weeks, my work was A's work. Why? Why the result always far from my expectation?

This really demotivating.

What to do?

I need some time to adjust myself.

My boat is sinking! Can someone help? No, I need to help myself first. Please show the way! Think! Think! Be positive!

Now, I really hope I can score very well in examination.

Smile

My dad forward me with this email, I do not know where the source was from( sorry to the author as I can't cite your work).

However; I would like to share with you this:

Smile like... when you were a kid...

....to be beautiful when you grow up!

Even should your beauty fade....you can still look happy

No matter what happens to you, keep a Smile on your face

Have a good day!



I feel so touch especially when he knows I was not happy the day before yesterday.
He sent this to comfort me.


My insight:
We are made of flesh and we can easily stir up by our own emotion such as anger, frustration, sorrow etc. No doubt we can't reject negative feeling , but , we can choose not to hold it and let it away after calming ourselves .

It's best to convert the negative emotion to positive pushing force.Think and take action to the source or cause pertaining to your unhappiness.
Tips: Focus on the issue not people.


I hope you can find your own progression to lead you the way to happiness.

Note: Remember to smile! ^^

When in Rome

• I feel my "finger itchiness" today. Haha.... That is why I write this blog.

• This was the movie I watch with my mom, sis and cousin last Tuesday. It is a romance movie.
• It talked about the main actress,Beth who did not believe in love after experienced failure before. She was like many women today, workaholic and had married to her work.
• Then, she took the coins from "Love Fountain" (note: I am not sure whether it is called) and thus a few admires came for her. Then the "adventure" began in her.
• At last, she found her true love.
• Overall, it was hilarious with certain jokes in.
• It ends happily.
• I do not describe the story plot in detail it is because:
  

1. I am lazy
2. In case you wanna watch, it will take away the surprise you can obtain from the movie.
   (excuse actually... sorry!)

I wish everyone can find their Mr. Right or Miss Right soon. And the story ends with fairy tale ending- Happy ever after ^^ . Believe it will come into reality.

Who knows? Miracles can happen.

In the picture of myself

I do not like to take photos since young. However, every time I visit facebook or other networking site's photo album, I have always admire people in the photos. Sometimes, I do wish I have many pictures of myself to keep those memory vividly of what I have encountered.

These few days, I have found the reason behind it after I have read a motivational book. Why I do not take photos with my friend ( except only they ask for or sometimes need to pledge me....."I am such a difficult person?" lol)?

It is actually very simple, it is all about self-esteem.

During secondary school time especially, I have no confidence at all. I do not even like my look, as I appeared not-so-pretty as compared with other girls (this was how I felt). Every time, I felt disappointed with the class picture taken every year. I had always compare myself with others, not only how do I look, my grades, etc. I was not happy that time as I was fooled by my negative thoughts. I had no self-trust. Actually, I am my worst enemy... (Do you know you are your worst enemy?).

Today, when I think of the past, I felt so sorry of myself. Why? I did not accept who I am. It is rather pathetic to dislike yourself. No one can make you feel inferior when you, yourself allow it. You belong to yourself. Every time we work to pledge people; to make people like you; to make people accept you. But the question is, are we really happy? Can happiness be measured by just how frequently you smile or laugh? Why can't we make ourselves happy; why do we lives under horror of your negative thought? Life is once and don't you feel is a waste to fill our only once with sorrow, dissatisfaction, problems, etc? I am not saying that we would not encounter bad things but is how we perceive it and handle it.

To err is human. We always make mistakes. But the sad in mankind is they don't want to accept the mistake they made and constantly stuck in the self-blaming situation where it inhibits progress. The worst mistake of all is actually not to accept mistakes. Mistake made is meant for learning, not to make you stuck there.

Back to my case, I had let myself down. But it is not too late to live your life to fullest. Have confidence towards youself, Lynhuei, you are equally good as other people. We need to live everyday as if isit is the last. The past experience need to be get rid and not let it drag you from progressing.

I like myself and I am who I am.

I want to be happy.

I am a successful person by fulfilling my goals in the future.

Ice Kacang Puppy Love

• This is a local Chinese movie. It talks about puppy love (obvious shown in the movie title). There were also some humorous scene which only Malaysian-Chinese able to understand.

• It featured the 90's kampung area lifestyle. Many Malaysian famous singer acted in this movie.
• Overall, this movie is okay more toward artistic featuring (this is solely base on my opinion).
• Want to know the story ?
• Haha... I won't tell you, watch yourself (Come on, at least support our homegrown movie)
• Action is louder than words, to be "patriotic" , I advise you to buy ticket and watch. You will know the answer.
• Basically, what it shown may be the experience we had before. And, the ending of the movie some people may dislike it.
• I was like the main actor, "Botak" featured by Ahniu, liked someone which I had no courage to tell. Haha..... dinosaur story....
  
• OK, that is all, can't share too much information.
  
• Keep it mystery will make things sound "better".
  
• LOL.

Be careful..

Today, I went for a movie with a few "not-so-close" or new friends.

On the way back the road at South City, my friend knock on a car due to driving on the wrong lane.

I was freak out that time, as this was the first time I encountered such accident on a busy road. The scratch on other people's car was just subtle, but my friend had to negotiate with him. I didn't actually hear what my friend and the person conversation. But, from the person's facial expression and body language he seemed not going to let us off by forgeting this issue. He was even taking his phone, this signify that he was going to call police.

I felt tremendously fearful at the same time felt this might be my fault. He drove quite fast as he wanted to send me to Sri Petaling station as soon as possible to my parents. Maybe this led him making mistake in driving.

Embarrassed moment, everyone was starring at us.

However, the problem was settled by paying RM 100 compensation to the person he knocked. Phew.... problem finally solved.

Thank god, there were no injuries. But I feel pity on my friend as he might need to spend some money to repair the damages. I hope he would not be too sad.

The first time hang out with friend aroused such incident, next time I will need to ponder and not simply just hang out for fun that may cause the " unwanted".

From this incident, I need to drive carefully in the future..."if I drive".

Swinging here and there

Emo blog here....Please do not take what I post here......

Today, I felt so bad ......
on what people said......
I wanna say something that I shouldn't say....

It is stuck here.....

Who should I trust on?

I am kinda lost today...

I feel moody.....

Am I too sensitive......or too emotional?

I tried to cover myself not to respond negatively....

It may (or not) fool people but it can't fool myself....

If I had no feeling.....

There wont be much pain.....

I wish I am heartless.....
If I can built stronger walls around me....

or if I invent a filter system in my ear.....

I would feel better....

Why this problem occur again?

Why I can't stand by myself even though how often I said to myself to be strong.....

Why am I so care of how people commented on me....

Why do I act like a coward....

I hate this feeling....

this make me weak....

and lower my enthusiasm in working....

I don't wanna trap in this problem again that prohibit my progress...

Hey...

stupid problem and emo thingy....

GO AWAY...

stay out of my life.....

Don't disturb me again...

or I will tear you in pieces....

burn you....

I swear.... I will beat you.....

Wait to loose!

Yesterday Sunday

Yesterday was my sister's birthday. After working in my grandma's restaurant, all of us went to Tony Romas to have celebration dinner together.

My sister likes steak, so we decided to celebrate in the western food restaurant. The serving for western food is really big. Me, my dad and my mom shared two dishes. On the other hand my sister can finish those big ribs her own. The birthday girl surely had big appetite on her big day.

Talk about my sister...

I have only one sibling. All this while I pray for another younger brother because I love small kids. But it turns out only "two limited edition" produced from my parents factory. It means on this planet earth, there is only one person that has most similar genetic match with me. And also, if my parents are not here, she is the only one closest to me.

Many people commented that we look alike; but our behaviours are poles apart.

Most obviously, my sister is physically gifted if not, she has the passion to involve in any physical activities. She likes sports, outdoor games and the list go ons.... When we were small, she had always drag me to play swords with her. And guess in the fighting game, who was always the winner? My sister.

She is unlike any other girls. She is not girlish, you will never see her wear skirts unless school uniforms. If you can make her wear one, thank you! I will reward you 10 bucks. Sometimes, she can be very stubborn but yet very protective. She looks fierce but... actually she is good-hearted and she would not trick or harm people as she is not "ge-po" at all to take any advantage.

My sister is going to take SPM examination this year. I hope she can put all out and get good results. I wish all the best to my only sister. God bless her.

Wasting Time... aiyo...

Today, there were four hours of break in between the 2 subjects that I attended.

What I planned to do during the break time were:

1. Read a book


2. Recap what I learned this week


3. Plan for a better study strategy
   

However, I didn't perform the task that I have set for myself.

I was so sleepy today. Actually it is all my fault, yesterday I became a coached potato sitting on my comfortable sofa and spend 6 hours for Hong Kong drama.

Imagine that.... I was so terrible as I am not discipline at all......

This was due to the exam was over. This was just an entertainment for myself.

But.... I swear... I feel so guilty for that.

So, I slept during the break. Then, I listen to people's gossip. Actually, I should go far away. Knowing other people's bad things doesn't make me feel good. I can't fully trust what the "spreader"said and also, I should not perceive the victim of the gossip as "a bad person".

Lesson learnt:

• Try to get away from gossip as what is said may not be true.


• If it is true, you will tend to look that person differently. How people behave is non of your business actually.

• Everyone is equal, no one is superior or inferior than others. Do not be bias or fall on one side.

Hope I can be an objective person. Only wears blue, white, yellow and green hats. Understand?

The Leader In You

The Leader In You, this is a a motivational book that I had spent almost a year to finish reading. Actually, I was the one who keep delaying reading.

The below content are extracted from this book, to avoid myself for being accuse in committing academic offence, I am here officially to give credit to the author and associated contributors. Dear friends or visitor, below is the referencing of the book, you can get this book if you are interested:


Carnegie.D et.al, 2003, The Leader In You (How to win friends, influence people and succeed in changing world), New York, Pocket Books

Let me briefly talk about the content based on the sub title available in the book.



To be a leader, one need to find the leader in oneself by identifying own strengths. Leader should also be able to visualise what to do and give instruction to the members to make what visualised come into reality. Then effective communication is essential to built trusting relationship. Besides, to make people move and willingly work for you, leader should be able to constantly motivate her/his team members. This will build up team working spirit among the members in achieving desired task.

To add on, to have effective communication with the team, leader need to be able to express genuine interest in others. People tend to ignore this important aspect. Actually, when you expressing interest on other people, and you really becoming more interested in the people around you. People will feel good when their views or opinions are being valued by giving interest on what they said.

Put in someones shoes through seeing things from other people's point of view. Knowing what is important for other is equally important as to getting work done. This will be a "pull" for your teammates to work with you instead of keep pushing them. You may ask, how to exercise empathy? The answer is having good listening skill. You need to step out yourself to discover what is important to others through listening to learn. "Nobody is more persuasive than a good listener".

"Teaming out for tomorrow" that a leader need to do through the following:

• Create a shared sense of purpose


• Make goals as team goals


• Treat people as individuals they are


• Make each member responsible for the team product


• Share the glory, accept the blame


• Take every opportunity to build confidence in the team


• Be involved, stay involved


• Keep mentoring

There are others guidelines needed to follow after the above:

• Setting Goals
• Focus and discipline
• Achieving Balance
• Creating Positive Mental Attitude
• Learning not to Worry
• The Power of Enthusiasm

Due to time constrain, I am not going to elaborate the above points. Please forgive me if you actually want to know more about the above points. Haha....

What I wrote may just the surface from this book. However, I highly recommend you to read this book as everyday we need to communicate with people and work in groups.

I am still learning to be an effective leader. In this semester 3, I wish I could alter my mistakes made in as leader in previous group assignment. This will be the second chance for me to gain more self-improvement.

Wish me luck.

13 April 2010

Today, I reached APIIT as usual early at around 7.10 am for the morning class.I took a nap on a table at Foyer until 8 am and then walk to the Enterprice 3 for my IBT tutorial class at 8.45 am.

Tutorial class today was a bit shocking for me, the tutor had chosen the group members for group activities. The members I got were all foreigners and some, I do not even know who they are. My mind immediately pop-out those nightmares in group assignment before in Semester 2. HOOH......

At first, I was really mad at the tutor Mr. Z. The first reason was about the grouping and the second reason was he said that the administration do not want to change the schedule for my class. Frankly speaking, I have to go to my school everyday accept for Sunday. There are 2 days which has only 1 class. The class carry about 1 hours and 15 minutes. And, I have to travel 1 and a half hour to school. It is wasting time and money . I suspect he never even talk to the admin, because last semester we requested the same thing and Admin allowed the change in schedule. He gave me reasons that.... other people are also in my position; ....admin is too busy to handle the same problem; ....is time to be independent ; and all the lame excuse he could think of to answer my pledge.

In the LRT on the way back home, I was really angry with him with the above two happening. But, I cannot be involved in this "blame game" again and putting all the false on my tutor. Instead, I will need to get remedies to solve these not preferable circumstances. Like my classmate kong said," Take problem as challenge. If there is no problem or obstacles, how can self-improvement gain without the inhabitants?". Yes, I agree to what he had said to me yesterday. Life cannot be as smooth like driving in the highway, because there will always be mad drivers around you, sometimes you will also drive to those small and bumpy roads. Back to the old saying, no pain no gain. People of yesteryear are always right.

What I want may not turn out as how it should be. But, I should alter my mind set.

• 
  
  In group assignment, the first thing to do in take away my stereotype on foreign students that they cannot perform good job in assignment and hard to communicate with them. Secondly, have a better plan for the group activity, constantly motivate my members and try to improve my leadership skills. I will need to solve the "hard-to-work-with-people mentality" right now. Lynhuei, prove you can. Also, get rid of my pessimistic thinking. Only happy people will always run things smoothly.


• 
  
  Schedule..... I guess I should let it be if plan B does not work. Hey, read books in the train would not waste my precious time.

OK, that is it for today morning story....

Action is louder than words. Start to deal with the "challenges" now by action. You can do it!

12 April 2010

Today was another ordinary day I thought. Monday blues occurred as usual when I first woke up and feel so__ reluctant to go to Apiit as I have to go through a long ride.

After that, my "good assistant ever" gave me a big surprise as she had backed to KL from her hometown. She had lunch with me " togehter-gether". I was really happy for her to be with me for that moment. I hope she will be always happy and get flying colours of results.

In this semester, I had more male friends due to different grouping. I hope by getting closer with them can enhance my knowledge especially in the IT subject. They are funny though sometimes, but boys still are boys, computer games are always their topic of discussion. Sometimes, I just cannot fuse in their discussion. So I need to mind my own business.

I hope I can learn a lot in this semester in not only understand my course thoroughly but also be able to work better with human beings that actually are same species like me.

Grouping "test"

Semester 3, my friends and I were grouped separately in different classes.

I was a bit disappointed with the outcome as I am the only person from my "gang" in that particular class.

In days before, I let my friends to choose switching class and stay with me. Apparently, with all the reasons they gave, I can sense they are not interested to be with me again.

OK, fine. Lets face the reality,I was dumped by my so call "good friends" again. No, it is actually a release for myself to excel without any burden anymore.

At first I was really upset, but hey, this will be the training ground for me to be independent. I can parachute my performance by working all by myself too.

So, it is good to see the true colour of the "buddy" and now I should only mind my own business.

All the best to myself.

Foundation Semester 2 wrap up

Sharing what happenned in Semester 2... lets start with the negative encounter...

1. Setbacks in group assignment.

I chosed to be the group leader; however, i did not manage my group members well. Some of them even my closer friend did not give full cooperation to me. I was really dissapointed and at that point of time I felt helpless. To be honest, I did cry for several nights. I cried because I had such fair-wheather friend; I cried because I felt doing all the job for the passenger in the group task where there was not any sign of appreciation and gave them such free marks; I cried because of anger toward those irresponsible people. This wasted a lot of energy. I had to do almost everything for the assignment. The most heart breaking part is after all the effort I had put in in the assignment, I get only a credit or known as B (not even a B+). What to do, should I negotiate with the tutor ? Maybe should I just accept it? Anyway, I had put all out in my exam, so now lets pray hard for the best outcome.

2. My bad habit occured again- too "kiasu"

'Kiasu" has always be the bad side of me. I am a person who always want to perform the best in my academic. This is because I am not good at other things such sports, good with gadget, etc. Education provide me knowledge and with the certificate for my future. This is my only weapon to survive when I am in the workplace. So, I can't let my self to get bad result. But, in semester 3 sometimes, my "kiasu" was a bit over, it should be a positive pushing force to strive harder. On the contrary, my mind turn thinking negatively and loose confidence on myself. I should have been more positive, kiasu still can be kept as a fighting spirit but not overly until it disturb my progress.

My positive encounter and learning experiance.

1. Found my niche in my college

In a group work, I have found a good assistance. I liked her as she really did what I have asked her to do. Also, I can adapt in the new environment. Finally!

2. Has more courage to voice out.

I am not that shy anymore in class. I have changed as I can as clarify any doubt by just asking question to my lecturer during lecture. In the past due to shyness, I was so reluctant to ask question in the class as I was afraid to ask silly question and then this will result people percieve me as a silly person. Today, I DON'T CARE. I will need to make full use of my lesson and absorb as many information as possible. Question ask may be foolish to some people. The person who ask will be look stupid maybe a few second; but, for those who dont ask will be foolish for the rest of the life. My lecturer said, " there is no silly question, but silly answer". So congrat to me..... I am more brave in the sense of clarifing doubts.

Check-in

Today, 7th April 2010 is not a celebration day (finally start my blog here after procrastinate for a long while) but I start blogging with this account.

I hope anyone who view my blog can give me feedback on what I wrote.

I had my blog previosly in my space, to enquire my previous written work please go to:
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